Stress

I've been away from home since Thursday and I've been really feeling stressed out. I never realized until traveling with Lucas just how much I depend on Curt (especially when it comes to Lucas.) My mom is starting to drive me a little crazy because on this trip she doesn't think I am ever feeding or nursing Lucas enough, or giving him enough protein. If I am feeling a little tense I can just imagine how my kid is feeling.

The three hour time change, new faces, and not having his Daddy or his Doggie is really stressing out my little baby... so much so that he has gone from his normal independent self to a clinger version. Each night he sleeps a bit more and seems a little less clingy during the day. At night he starts out sleeping by himself in a crib but always ends up snuggled up to me.

When we first got here I was a little worried that letting Lucas sleep with me would throw off his schedule back home and wondered if I should let him cry in the crib... but probably then we would both end up crying and sleepy so I just decided to "get over it" and pull him into bed with me. It is so funny how I just lay him down next to me and he just snuggles up next to me, grabs my shirt in one hand, and his "blanket person" with the other and will pass right out. If we were at home he would never do that! Instead he would want to be in his own space, alone, where he could stretch out and go to sleep with no distraction. I find myself just laying there wide awake watching him sleep like I did when he was first born and all the stress seems to melt away. He finds his comfort in me and I find mine in him.