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People tick me off. I am a lot less patient then I used to be. My excuse is being pregnant... but hey that is my excuse for everything now. People that don't email me back tick me off. I mean how hard is it to send a reply? You can even just say "hey I'm really busy I'll get back with you later" People that don't pay like they are supposed to on Ebay annoy me! Curt annoys me a lot... ha ha! Like tonight I finally got sick of asking him to take out the trash so I did it. I probably shouldn't because some of the stuff was heavy. But I'm sick of looking at the old computer desk in the soon to be baby's room in the middle of the floor... so I loaded it up and threw it away. I've always been "indpendent" like that though. I hate waiting on other people to do something. That is another think that ticks me off... waiting for people to do things that I ask them to do.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not really mad or anything. I just wanted to write. I miss writing and school and all that good stuff. I think about how much my life has changed from a year ago. This time last year I was in Trinidad on the most amazing study abroad trip, I was in school, and not pregnant. I was looking forward to graduation and trying to decide where I wanted to go to Graduate school or if I wanted to go to school.

Now here I sit 5 months pregnant and not "working". I sell on Ebay but I don't have a 9-5 job. (which if I did I don't see how I could do it since I can never get 8 hours of sleep thanks to either Lucas kicking me or jumping up and down on my bladder). I guess I still worry about what other people think and even though I am content, looking forward to being a stay at home mom, I am worried people are going to think I am a loser or wasting my college education. I know I shouldn't care what people think. I just saw myself somewhere else. But then again I never saw myself married this young. Everyone thought I was pregnant that is why I got married. HA HA!

I remember when the last semester of school started in photography we had to write down our dream jobs... and I wrote that I wanted to be a stay at home mom! Mrs. J asked me if I was planning on doing that right after school and I said "Oh no!!" Well I am about to have my dream job!

I love jumnping around to topics. My boobs hurt! The two things I didn't expect was 1) how much toliet paper we go through! Seriously I know it makes sense that I pee all the time but I never thought about it. We go through so much toliet paper now! The other thing is how much my boobs hurt. I imagine this is what it would feel like after having a boob job. Only I thought it was only supposed to last the first trimester. Also my nipples are changing color which they say is normal but I want my old boobs back! I have gotten used to them finally and accepted them and now I'm getting new ones. That isn't fair! That ticks me off too! lol!

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