Dinner was ok, it is basically Chili without the juice. It would be better with cornbread.. and of course I couldn't find Ranch Style Beans at our tiny Food Lion so I went with Chili Beans. It made a lot so we are going to have it again tomorrow. We're not too good for leftovers here.
Well I have been thinking about my relationship with my sister Lori today and I feel like I am a "bad sister." I think her last journal entry was sort of too me about how if someone teases her about talking to Tony all the time online she will cry or whatever... because I do tease her, I always say "Doesn't he ever work?" since they are always talking to each other online. I know it must be hard to be a newlywed and be apart from your spouse... I went through it with my Dad when he was in Desert Storm. Back then they didn't have the Internet then and we rarely got to hear from him, mostly it was through letters. I don't know if Lori really remembers any of that because I was young so she was REAL young. It is hard to be separated from someone you know. I was in third grade and I remember sending my dad my school picture in a letter so he could remember what I looked like because I was so scared that he would forget me... I still remember what it felt like to hug him when he stepped off the plane from overseas.
Anyway, Lori and I are as different as day and night. We would never pass as sisters, even though we are... She was a freshman while I was a senior at AASU and I remember one time I ran into her and she introduced me as her sister and I said "Oh she is just joking, we aren't really related... and then I said just kidding," Lori said after I left her friends still didn't believe that we were sisters. Our personalities are also a lot different. I am more out going and independent. I also have a real sarcastic sense of humor and love to dish it out and take it, while Lori is sensitive. My brother Ted and his Wife Lisa will tease me back and forth but if I would do the same thing to Lori it would hurt her feelings. It's just hard to remember that she isn't like me.
I think a lot of times when I joke around with her it hurts her feelings and she thinks I am being serious. I also get frustrated really easily with her because I would love for us to be really close. Lately we've been getting together every once in a while on Fridays for lunch which has been nice. I used to try to hang out with her on Saturdays but it would never work out, she would just stay on the computer.
Another reason I feel like I am the "mean sister" is I think her husband Tony thinks I pick on her. Nobody has ever come out and said it but he used to talk to me online and now he doesn't and he never responds to pictures or emails I send him, but he does to Lisa's. I haven't heard from him since the night he IMEd me at 2am and asked me to call Lori so they could talk. I had no problem calling her cell phone but it was turned off, so he wanted me to call the house which I didn't do... I'm not waking my parents up at 2am when they both get up early to go to work... (Lori lives with them still) plus they have caller ID, so what are they going to think when their pregnant daughter calls at 2am... maybe that something is wrong?
After that I've always had this running joke where I try to get Lori to tell me Tony's eBay name so I can see what he buys, it is this joke between Lisa and I... and its a long story... and it isn't just Tony. It would just be too hard and long to explain on here.
I could just be jumping to conclusions but Lori updated her journal right after I asked her why she doesn't post more. I'm always the one that calls her and invites her to do things, or emails her. It just seems very one sided. So maybe I am the evil sister.
On top of that there is some things going on with Curt's side of the family that is stressing me out, but it is retarded also. His Grandma just sent me an email saying that since we don't come over to dinner on Saturdays at 3pm before their poker game every two weeks that Curt must be mad at her, so she hopes he grows up when the baby comes. Even though he told her the reason we weren't coming is he had to work... he's been working overtime when he can because hmm.. we are having a baby so why not make extra money while he can. Plus 3:00 every other Saturday isn't the most convenient time (especially when we have to be out of there before all the poker people get there to play around 5:00 and Curt has plans every Friday with his friends at 6) Plus she lives across town... we are also trying to get the nursery done.
I'm not saying that we shouldn't spend time with Curt's family... which we should but we have three separate families we have to try and see and spend time with on the weekends, and I'm sure it will only get more stressful when we have the baby.
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