4 Days Pain and Prayers

Baby Curtis at 2 Days Old

Curt's back is hurt more then we thought. On Saturday nights he always goes over to his Grandpa Ken's house and hangs out. (Ken is more like a father figure to Curt then a Grandpa I think, he really looks up to him and Ken is such a great person so I can understand why). Well last night he couldn't even get up from were he was and couldn't drive himself home. So in the wee hours of the morning Ken drove Curt home, walked him in, and told me that if I went into labor no matter what time it was to call the house and they would get me there. It was so bad that Ken told me he thought he was going to have to call an ambulance because Curt just couldn't get up.

Curt immediately got on the couch and was in so much pain he had tears in his eyes. Last night Curt slept on the couch because if he has to try and get up for any reason he can just sort of roll onto his knees on the floor. I slept in the bedroom with the baby monitor turned on with the other unit out in the living room with him.

So I am back to being a nurse of sorts again. This time I am not as angry or mean. How can I be? It is hard to watch my 6'2" husband with tears streaming out of his eyes because he can hardly move. I am a little worried and stressed out with the whole impending labor thing. Also, we don't have health insurance (please no speeches) and Curt didn't think he had hurt his back that bad (remember he thought it was a possibly a bladder infection) so he didn't try to get workmen's comp. (but he is going to talk to his boss on Monday but I'm not expecting him to go for it, but we'll see). With his back this bad though he can't work, and if it isn't covered by WMC then he isn't getting his paycheck from work AND we have to pay for whatever it takes for him to get better.

I am trying to keep a brave face for him though because if he knows I am stressing about money he'll try to go back to work before he is able and that won't do either of us any good especially if he ends up doing more damage to his back. If worse comes to worse he can take his week of paid vacation that he was planning on using when our kid finally shows up. I know he doesn't want to, but we may have no other choice.

Right now I am just hoping Lucas shows up a little past his due date. (Which I didn't think I would ever be saying). I don't think I could handle both Curt and Lucas. This time Curt isn't acting like his normal "I'm being a big baby cause I have a little cold take so care of me" self, he is in so much pain he is like a little helpless baby because he pretty much can't do much by himself.

Well he is snoozing on the couch curled up with Jadie, so I think I am going to try and get out to the grocery store now. Please keep us in your prayers.