In the last few months I have started to attend church again after not really going for five years. I've also been part of a bible study with a few of the moms in our playgroup. We've been reading The Mission of Motherhood a few chapters at a time and then meeting on Wednesdays to discuss it. This book has shown me so many different ways to be a better mother and realizing just how important my job as "Lucas' Mommy" is.
I know I have mentioned the church thing here and there in my posts but I never really discuss it in depth. For some reason when it comes to personal things like my boobs I can go on and on but when it comes to something like God I clam up. I find myself too scared that I will offend or bore someone which is something I don't really struggle with when I write about any other subject. At the same time for a while I was only thinking about the "God stuff" on Sundays and Wednesdays but lately it just isn't enough anymore. The more I pray and the more I study and learn the more I feel like I am being spoken to on a deeper level. Even with all of these new and deeper spiritual "feelings" I still find myself struggling with having a basic faith.